Finding an outlet.

Hello. To start out my first ever blog, I should probably explain what is going on.

I have been dating my boyfriend on and off for 2 and a half years. The on and off part is due to the disorder. He has been professionally diagnosed as bipolar and has fought clinical depression multiple times, one resulting in an attempted suicide about a year and a half ago.

Growing up, my father was an undiagnosed bipolar. In my opinion, there are a few different versions of bipolar. Unfortunately my father was a more violent and explosive bipolar. My boyfriend, however, has never been violent nor has he ever said a harsh word to me. Having been exposed to this disease from such a young age has helped me in dealing with my relationship.

The reason I decided to start this blog was to maybe find others in this same position and create a community within ourselves. I have stopped telling my best friends about my relationship because there is no way they can understand what I am going through. Honestly, I know they think I'm insane for sticking around and if I were on the outside, I would probably think the same. So here I am, searching for an outlet to express my feelings without judgement.

This blog will likely be as bipolar as my relationship.